A mother's mind is a FRIGHTENING place to be sometimes. At least I hope it's not just my mind that's so scary!
Sometimes I get myself into a complete panic...Like right now...just about to fall asleep and get smacked with a fear of something happening to my little baby.
Would God let that happen??
Is my fear Him telling me something's going to happen??
Obviously this is not true, because God doesn't work like this. The Bible says clearly that fear and God's love do not go together.
1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love and self discipline.
FEAR IS NOT OF GOD. I'm not a "the devil has a foothold" type person, but this is where I feel like he drags me down. Being aware of that and reminding myself what God says is comforting to me - even though I'm fighting right now even as I type this. I don't want to be controlled by fear!
Please, if you're a mom, tell me I'm not alone! I go around in circles trying to rationalize things and I can't. It's an issue of lack of control!
I've been feeling it all around lately from:
...wondering how long my eyes will stay healthy...
...fearing getting on an airplane
...and now the worst, I just can't even type it... a mother's worst fear. (I probably should not write blog entries during a panic attack...)
So, that said - I don't have a pretty closing statement because my stomach is in knots and it's 1am, but I do know this. God loves me and he loves my baby even more than I do and when we ask God for His protection, He gives it!
I leave you with my favorite and most comforting verse, as right now (and always), Scripture speaks so much better than I can.
Philippians 4:6-7 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.